BrainSurged

I remember the first post on this blog. I was high on steroids and bubbling with Joie de vivre after a simple corrective surgery after years of wondering. Then the posts turned dark as my thoughts went darker, and that reflected in my every day. This time around, I'm struggling not to look for darkness everywhere. I am afraid to hope, to have an optimistic prognosis when something positive happens. Perspective is still required.  "Perspective still required!" Anybody who's ever stepped foot in a gym; is self-aware and/or not a narcissist, like me, can attest to the feeling of insufficiency I describe. In Neuro-rehab for the whole month, I see both terribly hurt and recovering patients and disgustingly fit people. As I sit panting after fifteen or so minutes of biking, I see my instructor lifting weights. The muscles I had no idea exist in a human body on his body make me avoid his half of the gym. In my peripheral vision, I immediately recognize other never-me-level f...

I have a bookshelf. And books on shelves. And everywhere else. I also have eBooks on three laptops, at least three phones, e-tablets and an external hard disk. In just one of my devices, I realized I have about 531 GB of books. This realization gave me such profound joy. Of all my maladies, Tsundoku is the only one I have no intention of addressing or ameliorating. I will, for now and ever, happily collect all the books I like and go to my grave with at least a half of them unread- and be happy with that part of my legacy. The reason this came up today was because I saw something unappetizing. Loving books and having a voracious appetite for reading and collecting books makes me economize by getting free books however possible. I am pretty sure I am not averse to stealing them when tempted enough. Luckily, I am so far honest, for want of opportunity! Thanks to almost free eBook websites like leanpub.com! So, imagine a book like this, at a place one goes to download free boo...